I could just leave it wrong & you can't make it right

 

I Hope you feel the same way - Butterfly - Melly Goeslaw feat Andhika

Ketika waktu mendatangkan cinta
Aku putuskan memilih dirimu
Setitik rasa itu menetes
Dan semakin parah

Bisa ku rasa getar jantungmu
Mencintaiku apa lagi aku
Jadikanlah diriku
Pilihan terakhir hatimu

Butterfly terbanglah tinggi
Setinggi anganku untuk meraihmu
Memeluk batinmu yang sempat kacau
Karna merindu

Butterfly fly away so high
As high as hopes I pray
To come and reach for you
Rescuing your soul
That previous messed up touching me and you

Jalan ini jauh
Namun kita tempuh
Bagai bumi ini
Hanya milik berdua

Biar ku berlebihan
Mendekatimu
Namun ku tunggu

 

You know what this mean to me..

 

The Way of life

 

 

 

Pak Tongko or Cakoi?

Pak Tongko or Cakoi?

You call it Cakoi & I call it Pak Tongko. Still remember that? There are so many new things I had learned when I with you. So many foods I had tried when I with you. Foods I never imagine that I will eat such as "puyuh goreng", "telur bistik", "ikan bakar", "Rangka ayam" and "Durian". Errr durian I think is your father that always ask me to eat even when I did not like "durian" when it not freeze. Do you remember that when I said if I look at your face without your hijab I can eat anything even the vegetable? That is how sweet you are to me or is it me under your spell or charm?

Menu for Cakoi in Brunei. Different from Malaysia

Brunei Cakoi

Your had teach me " Kedai Maplay" when I only know "Kedai Mamak". You had show me the life of "kampung", you show me beside Penang & KL there other culture that I should know and learn. You had teach me to bath with cold water instead of using water heater. You make me feel how cold is "kampung" at night. Do you remember that I said, I always wish I have wife from "kampung" so that when "Hari Raya" I will have the mood of "balik kampung"?

Do you still remember on 9th February 2013? It is the day we go back to your "kampung" for me to meet your parent for the first time. You have to work on that Saturday and I had waited for you at your brother in law house at Sungai Petani. Well not actually I did not wait at your brother in law house but I wait at Shell station near the house. Have to wait your sister back from her in law as there something she need to pass to your parent. Before we start our journey we eat at the restaurant near the house. I know there 1 things special at that restaurant which I cant remember. It is you who introduce me to it and I like it. Whenever we go eat there I always want that thing. Can you help me to remember what dish it is?

The funny things is I afraid to go to your parent house. Do you remember I always ask you what your parent will ask me? Are they going to test me? For the first impression when going to meet up with your parent I had go for jogging and cycling to reduce my tummy. It not 100% reduce but it is less visibly compare to when we first go out. Yeop Joe family was there at that night, your mom is there but your father is not around when we arrive.

The next morning your father had ask me to follow him to have breakfast and it is only both of us. Do you know how scared I am at that time when you not following us? When in the car your father show and tell me the interesting place and where his first school is and where his parent house. It is a ice breaker as from there only we start to talk. When we arrived at the Kampung Gajah "maplay" your father friends was there but he introduce me as his friend at that time. At that time I always thinking when your father want to talk about us. I had order 1 "roti kosong" and milo panas. Your father is very friendly and always like to tell about the place and all the things about kampung. From our conversation he is proud with you and your sister. He had told me how manja you are when you stay at hostel. Your mother had to bring foods to you so that you happy. After finish our meal and when your father was smoking he start asking me about me. How long I had work at DCM, where I studied, about my family and about us.

The things that I still remember he was saying to me is that he okay with your choice because he & your mother do not want to control and choose who you should marry. Both of them want you to have happy life until the end and not for short time. So who ever you choose they will accept it. He told me a lot about you. How you love to eat and if the dishes is less than what you expected you will sulk (merajuk) with them. Well you still "merajuk" now and then, but belief me when we officially married & whenever you "merajuk" with me I know how to "pujuk" you.  Tapi abg merajuk kuat lagi dari syng. right?

When we go back to your house your mother was asking what we had discussed during our breakfast, your father answer is simple. It a guy discussion. There a lot of people at your house when we come back and I still remember you said that is how "kampung" life is. Chatting until noon before preparing for lunch. My mind was thinking if you going to cook at 12 noon at what time can eat lunch? It is because I saw my mother always start cooking in the morning and finish by noon. So when the lunch was ready at 1pm I was surprise how fast your mom, you and mak su cook.

After you rest for a while we go out for our outing to Lumut. There to many people as it was Chinese New Year holiday at that time.  We eat there, takes pictures and also but a pair of T-Shirt for both of us with our name on it. On the way back we stop by at "maplay" shop at Air Tawar to buy foods for Yeop Jeo. Then you show me your parent house at Air Tawar. What a memories I have with you. I like to think all this when I missed you. It seem like yesterday all this happen but time fly so fast as this Sunday-9th February 2014 it is 1 year when all that happened.

Our T-Shirt

the big fish in lumut

How lucky the fish is. Get hugged by sweet lady.

Can't remember what this call

Navy ship

1st Ring for her from me

For Sharing

credit to Brunei FM.

KETIKA KITA MENGELUH:
“EEEIII, AKU PENAT SANGAT..."

ALLAH MENJAWAB:
(وَجَعَلْنَا نَوْمَكُمْ سُبَاتًا)
“ DAN KAMI JADIKAN TIDURMU UTK ISTIREHAT (AN NABA' : 9)...

KETIKA KITA MENGELUH:
“BERATNYA DUGAAN NI, TAK SANGGUP RASANYA AKU..."
 
ALLAH MENJAWAB :
(لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا)
“ AKU TIDAK MEMBEBANI SESEORANG, MELAINKAN SESUAI KESANGGUPAN”
(AL BAQARAH : 286)

KETIKA KITA MENGELUH : “SERABUTNYAA..."
ALLAH MENJAWAB :
( أَلَا بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ)
“ HANYA DGN MENGINGATKU HATI AKAN MENJADI TENANG”
(AR RA'D : 28)

KETIKA KITA MENGELUH:
“APA YG AKU BUAT NI SEMUA SIA-SIA..."
 
ALLAH MENJAWAB :
(فَمَنْ يَعْمَلْ مِثْقَالَ ذَرَّةٍ خَيْرًا يَرَهُ)
"SIAPA YG MENGERJAKAN KEBAIKAN SEBESAR BIJI ZARAH SEKALIPUN, NESCAYA IA AKAN MELIHAT BALASANNYA ”
(AL ZALZALAH : 7)

KETIKA KITA MENGELUH:
“ TAK DAK SORANG PUN YG NAK TOLONG AKU..."
 

ALLAH MENJAWAB:
(وَقَالَ رَبُّكُمُ ادْعُونِي أَسْتَجِبْ لَكُمْ)
“ BERDOALAH (MINTALAH) KEPADAKU, NESCAYA AKU KABULKAN”
(AL GHAFIR : 60)

 
KETIKA KITA MENGELUH :
“ AKU SEDIHH SANGAT...”ALLAH MENJAWAB:
( لَا تَحْزَنْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَنَا ۖ )
“ JGNLAH KAMU BERDUKA CITA, SESUNGGUHNYA ALLAH BESERTA KITA "
(AT TAUBAH : 40)
P/s: This is me. I always forgot Allah is with me whenever I sad.

JGN BYK MENGELUH . BANYAKKAN BERSABAR DAN TERUSKAN KEHIDUPAN INI ,

DGN TAQWA...
MOGA-MOGA KITA MENJADI INSAN YANG BERTAKWA


Zikir Hasbi Rabbi
To my princess
Thanks for the zikir. I appreciate it and I should know Allah is with me where ever I go and my heart should love HIM. I always hear this zikir in Brunei but don't know the meaning and now I will play it when ever I feel lonely. Thanks again my dear.   

Hasbi Rabbi Jallallah
Cukuplah Tuhan bagiku Allah Maha Agung
My lord is enough for me Glory be to Allah

Ma Fi Qalbi Ghayrullah

Tiada didalam hatiku kecuali Allah

There is nothing in my heart except Allah

 

Nur Muhammad Sallallah

Cahaya Muhammad selamat atasnya

The light of Muhammad peace upon him

 

Haqqul LaillahhaillAllah

Benarlah tiada tuhan selain Allah.

It is true there is no God but Allah

 

Lets make our self familiar with this zikir and don't let our heart empty without Allah as there is no God but Allah.  

 

Am I Happy Today?

I not happy today. I not in good mood. I feel lonely, empty and want to go back. Got my car yesterday and start to drive. Alhamdullilah yesterday evening I had done what I wanted to do after I get my car. But today while driving to my HQ and to my plant office there a feeling which I cannot avoid. I always familiar with someone beside me when I driving in Penang and today that person is not here. No more talking in the car, no more laughter, nobody ask me to be careful when driving & no more familiar smell in the car. All this make me want to go back even more........

15 Ways to Keep A Relationship

For me & you.

1. Love each other
2. Don’t lie
3. Keep communication open
4. Stay sweet
5. When you get hurt, focus on forgiving
6. Never talk about break-ups...
7. Never say ‘it’s ok’ when it’s not
8. Learn to put your ego aside
9. If you say ‘sorry,' mean it
10. Don’t compare your past with your present
11. Don’t talk about your ex’s
12. Practice 'give and take'
13. Be aware of your partner’s feelings
14. After a fight, work on resolving the issue right away; don’t let the days go by
15. Although there is no ‘perfect person’ out there, There IS a ‘right one’ for you....

To My Lovely Princess

You want to know who I really love? Read the first word again.

 

The shortest word I know is       I

The sweetest word I know is  LOVE

The person I never forget is     YOU

 

When I get angry...
I want you to try convince me back...

When I feel sad..
I wish you would try to make me smile......

When I lose hope
I need you to support me.... and make me strong...
 

When I love you...

I wish you to love me back even more♥

 

 

LOVE is not finding the PERFECT person but by seeing an IMPERFECT person PERFECTLY. Do you know that it doesn't matter where I go in life, what I do or how much I earn. It is who I have beside me and I am so glad I have you. If I could give you one thing in my life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me. You changed my life without even trying & I don't think I could ever tell you how much you mean to me. I can't imagine what things would be like if I hadn't met you. When we first met, I had no idea you would be so important to me. You had brought me closer to who I really am. -My princess this is from the deepest of my heart, your Z-    

A Reminder for Myself

Ya Allah - I'm Affraid & Worried



Ya Allah, Alhamdullilah for giving me everything in my life. YOU had give me someone who had bring changes in my life & I hope I also can bring changes to that person life.  I am afraid now & I am worried. Only YOU know what is messing in my mind. Pls give me calm and peace. I want to changed and pls don't let me do something which I will regret. It is difficult when you want to do something goods and be close to YOU when all the things happen. I don't want to lose hope on YOU. To YOU I surrender myself because YOU know the best for our future. Pls guide us.   

 

Ya Allah tidak ada Tuhan selain Engkau, Maha Suci Engkau. Sesungguhnya aku ini termasuk orang-orang yang zalim

Promises & Trust

It a big words in relationship. I had promised and I had keep it until now because I know Promise mean everything and once it is broken sorry mean nothing. I make promises that I can keep and now I wondering is it only me who have to make all the promises in relationship? Do I the only one must promise? I had promise to be good, I had promise to leave all the things behind and start new but is it worth it now?

I need people to promise to me. I trust people but if you cannot make promise or in doubt to leave all the things behind and look forward for the future what the point we planning for the future. It just going to collapse when we are only half the way to the future. It is really difficult to make promise for good things? When you had make a promise with someone and whenever you thinking of going back to your old habits you will realize that it not worth it to break your promise when someone had trusted you. "Trust it takes years to built but seconds to break and forever to repair." So don't lie, don't cheat and don't make promises that you can't keep. If you can't make promises to me so why do I have to honor my promises?

 

Wordless Wednesday

Work & Love

Will separate the entry for today into 2 Headlines. 1st about my work & 2nd about my Love.

Work.
Finally I got my own laptop yesterday. Nice slim Dell laptop. Need to buy broadband so that I can video call with my fiancée at night. Things need for my work still not yet complete.

1. Laptop - Done
2. Email - Not Yet Install @ laptop
3. Car - Have to wait for my Brunei Driving License

Hope before CNY break all this can be done.

My Work station

My new laptop

Love
Chat we my fiancée last night. A lot of things we discussed and I want to make sure she happy with me when we get married. While chatting with her, the radio play the song Thousand Years by Christina Perri from the movie Twilight-Breaking Dawn. This is the first movie outing for me and her. Still remember when I first started to ask her to go out for movie. We go out after work and catch 7pm movie. At that time we go out as a colleague and did not think much that we would be a couple one day. Listening back to the lyric of this song make me appreciate what Allah had planned for us.  Allah is such a good planner. HE know what best for you.

To my lovely princess, when we first go out my heart beat fast with color and promises but how to be brave and how can I love when I afraid to fall at that time. But when your subordinate asking the question and when I watching you stand alone all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. Beauty is all what you is. I will be brave and I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me. All along I believed that I would find you.  Time had brought your heart to me, darling don't be afraid as I have loved you. We are now one step closer to what we had planned 1 year ago.